Hurried update
Apr. 23rd, 2012 09:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wiseheartAs you can see on the update alerts, I'm still alive... barely.
Warning? lots of RL-related whining behind the tag.
I'm just drowning in work and incredibly depressed by our &@|ÄÄđ]|&@{][đ[đä@>đ|äđĐ]Đ[€ government's fantastic plans for our future. Apparently, brand new taxes are being introduced gradually (or not so gradually), which means that we, small people, who don't have the means to steal, lie and cheat when it comes to our income, will bear the major height of it. Again. We had to cut back on quite a few things already, and the near future promises to be a lot worse. So, Mum and I decided to go to Germany this summer, 'cause next year we might not be able to afford any longer trip.
We're planning to move my grandparents from the cemetery across the city - and those who've visited Budapest can tell you that it's a frigging huge city - to the columbarium of a nearby church. It will cost more than our trip to England/Wales cost us last year, but at least they'll be resting in an environment that doesn't remind a particularly untamed jungle, complete with man-eating insects. And we can visit them whenever we will, without needing to plan a day-long trip. Mum will be able to go there without me, within half an hour, and that will comfort her greatly. She always had a guilty conscience because we went so rarely, the poor thing, but the cemetery is far away, and it's huge, and I wouldn't dare to go to the distant corner where my grandparents are buried alone. Plus the trip by tram leads across an area of teh city that I wouldn't visit voluntarily.
I also managed to break one of my molars, so tomorrow there'll be a trip to the dentist. Who, what else, also lives and works across the city, just in a different direction. Also, this is a private praxis, so the whole thing is gonna be costly; meaning that we can kiss good-bye every cent we have saved last month. But she's incredibly nice and very good, and I hope she'll be able to save the tooth. I prefer to keep my own chewing tools, thank you very much, and I already have a bridge on the other side.
Getting down to the less spectacular topics, our household seems to want to drive us mad. The taps are dripping, unless we screw them closed with brutal force. My satellite receiver still doesn't work as it used to be since it had to be repaired. Neither my PC nor my laptop is willing to work the way I'd like them, and I simply don't dare to do anything about that, out of fear that I may make everything worse. I'm really not technically savvy, and I'm too stupid to understand written instructions, not to mention follow them properly.
Also, several colleagues are on sick leave again, which means the return of the lovely double shifts. 30 years ago, when I was a shiny new model, it didn't bother me so much. But I'm beginning to feel my age and can't deal with the increase of stress half as well as I used to. And no, being menopausal doesn't help, thank you very much. *sighs*
Because of all this, I find it increasingly hard to concentrate on my writing - the only thing that keeps me relatively sane. I'm not sure how long I'll manage the weekly updates to "Elvenhome"; also, the TNG zombie story I'm writing for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
artemis10002000 as a belated Easter gift makes slower headway than I had hoped for. "Arthur's Quest" is completely on hiatus, and I'll have to re-read the existing 13 chapters to find my way back into it, and "Smiths & Joneses", my recent Torchwood project is dragging along rather sluggishly.
I'm just so horribly tired all the time. I'm down to 5 or 6 hours sleep each night, but even so, there's always something I can't finish when I planned, and that's frustrating.
Tomorrow I'll also have one of those open lessons when parents are allowed to visit the lessons and see what we're doing with their kids. Wish me luck.
Warning? lots of RL-related whining behind the tag.
I'm just drowning in work and incredibly depressed by our &@|ÄÄđ]|&@{][đ[đä@>đ|äđĐ]Đ[€ government's fantastic plans for our future. Apparently, brand new taxes are being introduced gradually (or not so gradually), which means that we, small people, who don't have the means to steal, lie and cheat when it comes to our income, will bear the major height of it. Again. We had to cut back on quite a few things already, and the near future promises to be a lot worse. So, Mum and I decided to go to Germany this summer, 'cause next year we might not be able to afford any longer trip.
We're planning to move my grandparents from the cemetery across the city - and those who've visited Budapest can tell you that it's a frigging huge city - to the columbarium of a nearby church. It will cost more than our trip to England/Wales cost us last year, but at least they'll be resting in an environment that doesn't remind a particularly untamed jungle, complete with man-eating insects. And we can visit them whenever we will, without needing to plan a day-long trip. Mum will be able to go there without me, within half an hour, and that will comfort her greatly. She always had a guilty conscience because we went so rarely, the poor thing, but the cemetery is far away, and it's huge, and I wouldn't dare to go to the distant corner where my grandparents are buried alone. Plus the trip by tram leads across an area of teh city that I wouldn't visit voluntarily.
I also managed to break one of my molars, so tomorrow there'll be a trip to the dentist. Who, what else, also lives and works across the city, just in a different direction. Also, this is a private praxis, so the whole thing is gonna be costly; meaning that we can kiss good-bye every cent we have saved last month. But she's incredibly nice and very good, and I hope she'll be able to save the tooth. I prefer to keep my own chewing tools, thank you very much, and I already have a bridge on the other side.
Getting down to the less spectacular topics, our household seems to want to drive us mad. The taps are dripping, unless we screw them closed with brutal force. My satellite receiver still doesn't work as it used to be since it had to be repaired. Neither my PC nor my laptop is willing to work the way I'd like them, and I simply don't dare to do anything about that, out of fear that I may make everything worse. I'm really not technically savvy, and I'm too stupid to understand written instructions, not to mention follow them properly.
Also, several colleagues are on sick leave again, which means the return of the lovely double shifts. 30 years ago, when I was a shiny new model, it didn't bother me so much. But I'm beginning to feel my age and can't deal with the increase of stress half as well as I used to. And no, being menopausal doesn't help, thank you very much. *sighs*
Because of all this, I find it increasingly hard to concentrate on my writing - the only thing that keeps me relatively sane. I'm not sure how long I'll manage the weekly updates to "Elvenhome"; also, the TNG zombie story I'm writing for
artemis10002000 as a belated Easter gift makes slower headway than I had hoped for. "Arthur's Quest" is completely on hiatus, and I'll have to re-read the existing 13 chapters to find my way back into it, and "Smiths & Joneses", my recent Torchwood project is dragging along rather sluggishly.I'm just so horribly tired all the time. I'm down to 5 or 6 hours sleep each night, but even so, there's always something I can't finish when I planned, and that's frustrating.
Tomorrow I'll also have one of those open lessons when parents are allowed to visit the lessons and see what we're doing with their kids. Wish me luck.
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Date: 2012-04-23 09:30 pm (UTC)Good luck with the open lesson and getting the other things sorted!
Not surprising that you are tired and out of it. Hope you feel better soon. :)
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Date: 2012-04-25 04:45 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-23 10:39 pm (UTC)Hugs.
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Date: 2012-04-25 04:46 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-24 01:42 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-25 04:49 pm (UTC)Are you from Germany, too? Mum and I are planning to visit Hamburg (and Lübeck) in July, if you live anywhere near, we might even be able to organize a personal meeting.
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Date: 2012-04-25 11:41 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-26 04:19 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-24 03:45 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-25 04:50 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-24 08:41 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-25 04:53 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-24 11:30 am (UTC)Yeah... more tax, less money, more tax, less money! (And I like paying tax.) I can help with books and DVDs, so if you need anything, let me know x
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Date: 2012-04-25 05:00 pm (UTC)Personally, I'm not that much bothered about myself - when you're dead, you're dead, right? - but Mum is greatly comforted by it, so I'm content, too.
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Date: 2012-04-25 11:37 am (UTC)*huggles tightly* Awk, I'm sorry everything in your life sucks so much right now, that's just not fair. I hope it's going to get better soon. Not the politics, nothing we ordinary people can do about that, but that at least the frizzing technology and your work life will give you a breather.
Take your time writing, there's no need to rush
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Date: 2012-04-25 05:07 pm (UTC)I think you'll like the new diretion, as it now has politics, too, not just zombies, and the whole thing has now a sound reason, which the original didn't, not really. I think it's more true to the Trek spirit this way; if I only could make the beginning match the ending... Well, we'll see.
BTW, since you're a member of my Memory Alpha Yahoo group, you can read the first 6 chapters in their current form. There'll be one more chapter, and then it's finished (hopefully), so I can go back and redo the first half. Joy!
Work situation is going right down the toilet, with even more colleagues going down with one shit or the other. But that can't be helped.
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Date: 2012-04-25 07:20 pm (UTC)Politics and a sound reason behind the plot sounds great, I'm all the more curious now! Yeah, I know all the pains about having to go back and find some way to twist the earlier part of a story to squeeze in a plot twist that you only thought up later. I always get the impression it's more work to change things in the aftermath than it was to write it in the first place.
Also, yay for Memory Alpha! I didn't realize you've already updated some chapters there. I don't use yahoo groups anymore, all you get there nowadays is spam :( I miss the good old yahoo groups days, these daily digests were far more comfortable for lazy people like me than browsing LJ communities
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Date: 2012-04-26 04:21 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-26 04:41 pm (UTC)I should quit the daily digests of these dead groups, though, that would solve my spam problem.
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Date: 2012-04-26 06:47 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-28 07:12 pm (UTC)Äh... na ja, vielleicht ist Spaß bei ner Zombiegeschichte das falsche Wort, aber Du weißt, was ich meine! Ich musste weg, gerade, als ich an einer spannenden Stelle war und hab das wirklich bis auf die letzte Minute hinausgezögert - nur noch einen Absatz und noch einen!
Mir gefällt die politische Handlung, die Du eingebaut hast, auch sehr gut.
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Date: 2012-04-28 10:22 pm (UTC)Bin fast fertig mit dem vorletzten Kapitel. Eins noch, und alles finito. Es ist länger geworden als beabsichtigt, aber der politische Aspekt hat es ein bißchen kompliziert. Ich werde dann alles zu LJ aufladen, damit wir eine vernünftige Diskussion haben können. *g*
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Date: 2012-04-29 02:29 pm (UTC)Hui, da hast Du ja nicht mehr viel zu schreiben. Ich freu mich schon drauf! Und länger als geplant werden die Geschichten bei uns doch eh immer, nicht wahr? *grins*
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Date: 2012-04-29 04:16 pm (UTC)Insofern habe ich bereits ein Kommentar, und niemand wollte mich lynchen - noch nicht. Allerdings kann sich das endern, sobald die Leute merken daß ich Beverly als eine inkompetente Gans porträtiere und Ryker einen Lustling. *g*
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Date: 2012-04-29 04:35 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-26 01:12 am (UTC)It *is* good to hear you've been able at last to persuade Mum to move the family remains to a place where she can visit safely on her own and have the comfort of knowing you'll all be buried together.
Good luck resolving the dental Crack of Doom. Sounds painful!!! [hugs]
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Date: 2012-04-26 04:35 pm (UTC)Work situation doesn't seem to be getting better in the near future. Apparently, the method is to work my generation into an early grave, so that the younger ones can get our jobs without the f***ing state having to pay us our well-earned old-age pansions.
But I'm fiercely determined to outlive them all. Then, when they die from malice and greed, I'll go to their funeral and laugh my head off. And when they're being put under the earth, I'll rub my hands gleafully and ask them: So, could you take anything you've stolen from us with you in the grave? Was it really worth making our lives miserable? See, a**hole, I'm still here!
That's what I'll do when I'm a hundred years old, and it'll be a fantastic feeling!
Actually, our PM is several years younger than I am but looks like my father, so the chances are good. Apparently, being a malevolent git isn't good for one's general health.
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Date: 2012-04-26 02:58 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-04-26 04:38 pm (UTC)