Dratted muses!

[wiseheart]

Life is so frigging unfair! Now that I have 3 days free in a row (March 15 is a national holiday over here), I hoped to update a couple of long-overdue stories. I've produced a dozen or so pages for three different ones today - every single one is crap. I'll have to rewrite them all, and when I get the inspiration to do so is everyone's guess.

I hate it when the muses do this to me! I have little enough time to write as it is, and now it doesn't even work! Not that anyone but me would cry over the missed updates, but when I can't even write for the desk drawer any longer, then I'm seriously doomed. This is my only escape from the unpleasantness that's the rest of my life. Arrrgh!

I really mourn for the times when I used to be upset about negative reviews. Or about no reviews at all. At the very least, I could still write back then!

Comments

[artemis10002000]

*huggles* Muses can be so evil. Hope your muses will return soon. I know the feeling how sucky it is when you want to escape into fandom when you're feeling crappy and then even that doesn't work. Maybe you're just too stressed to write? Doing something fun with your mum and relaxing might make you feel better and make your muses return, too.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Yeah, stress has definitely something to do with it. But I've overcome my "innerend Schweinehund" and rewrote the last nine or so pages of the upcoming chapter of "Atlantis Café". I'm just about to type it up right now and hope to post it to FF.Net and otherworlds_lib in the afternoon.

The problem was, I had so little time to spare in the last two weeks that I wrote at a speed of perhaps two paragraphs a time, so the chapter turned out uneven, repetitive and generally crappy. I hope I've managed to do some damage control this morning.

Edit: New chapter is up. I think you'll like it, despite its occasional unevenness. Looking forward to hear your opinion.

[artemis10002000]

Yeah, that's hell to your writing when you have to write in little hacked-off bits and pieces. But I admire you for forcing yourself to edit after that disappointing writing weekend.

Will read tonight, already looking forward to it!

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

I must admit, it wasn't an easy thing. I nearly cried when I decided to redo all nine pages of it. Fortunately, I could re-use a few parts, after shifting them back and forth within the chapter... well, I hope it won't be too confusing. *sighs*

[artemis10002000]

Nope, I didn't find it confusing at all. To be honest, I wouldn't have known that this chapter gave you a hard time from reading it.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

That's a relief. :)

[nerwen-calaelen.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Life's like that sadly - it seems to me that with writing it is very rare to have time, energy and inspiration. Any two yes, but al three is the problem.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

And it's so frustrating! I had to redo nine(!) pages of Atlantis Café until I could finally post it yesterday. I'm still not entirely sure about the chapter, but I thought enough is enough and simply posted it.

Some part are really good, I think, other parts are a bit forced, but, well, I've got it out of my hair, and that makes me happy.

[nerwen-calaelen.livejournal.com]

Well if it makes you happy, that is the important thing. :)

[cirdan-havens.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Yeah, I know what you mean. I haven't written in years. -_-

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

And I've missed your writing. And your comments. And our discussions about plot twist and suchlike. I missed you in fandom-related things, period. *hugs back*

[rcfinch.livejournal.com]

My experience is that the more time you have, the less you get done. You feel you *must* use the time to your advantage, and because of that you promptly cramp up. It's not fair.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

No, it isn't. OTOH, sometimes you just have to clench your teeth and punch through the barrier, regardless of the outcome.

[lhun-dweller.livejournal.com]

Darn those muses!

Got your second chapter for Cadfael - will edit both at some point here. I'm finally having more energy again: amazing how quickly an iron supplement can make a difference when one is anemic! So, I'm beginning to dig out from the large pile of Things To Be Done. (Although today's focus is dealing with the water flowing through the basement. Gets me a day at home! Mac is pleased, too.)

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Getting a day at home is always good, as long as one doesn't feel too ill.

[ithilwen.livejournal.com]

You're not the only one who has discovered that muses like to go on vacation at the same times we do. It's really quite annoying!

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Well, it sometimes helps if you are real brutal with them... but not always.

[ithilwen.livejournal.com]

Mine laugh at my feeble attempts at brutality, alas. They know me too well!

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

No, no, you must keep pushing, or else they'll never realize that you actually *mean* it!

[ithilwen.livejournal.com]

Too late - they already know I'm a softy at heart.