Not-quite-unexpected health issues

[wiseheart]

With all the stress I am having lately, it was only a matter of time, I guess.

No, no panic attacks again. This time, it's the triumphant return of my heart problems. The whole thing starts with a pressure on my chest, like a belt laid around it and being pulled tighter slowly, deliberately. Then it reaches my heart. It's a funny feeling, as if someone would hold it in their hand and then closing their fist slowly, applying more and more pressure, and my left arm goes a bit numb.

The worst part is over, for the time being. Right now, it's just a faint ache, barely there. It's more annoying than painful, really. But I'm not happy about its return.

This is nothing new. Between twenty and thirty, I had it recurring all the time. Been to numerous doctors with it, both here and in Germany. They never found anything wrong. Had to take various medicines, from Nitroglycerine pills to serious heart medication, the same one my Granny got for a while. It didn't do a thing, so I stopped taking them. After a while, when the stress levels lessened, I seemed to "grow out" of it, if one can grow out of anything at that age.

Now it seems to be back. Heart problems are hereditary in our family, and my Granny lived 96 years despite them, so I'm not particularly worried. It's just very unpleasant, and I feel so terribly weak when it comes over me, it's not even funny.

Comments

[jen-rock.livejournal.com]

That sounds really bad even though you say it's something you've had before. I hope you can get to a doctor soon. I'll keep you in my prayers. Try to take it easy, please. ~hugs and good wishes.~

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'll try. But it's not easy, due to the workplace-related things that wont go away any time soon.