Not-quite-unexpected health issues

[wiseheart]

With all the stress I am having lately, it was only a matter of time, I guess.

No, no panic attacks again. This time, it's the triumphant return of my heart problems. The whole thing starts with a pressure on my chest, like a belt laid around it and being pulled tighter slowly, deliberately. Then it reaches my heart. It's a funny feeling, as if someone would hold it in their hand and then closing their fist slowly, applying more and more pressure, and my left arm goes a bit numb.

The worst part is over, for the time being. Right now, it's just a faint ache, barely there. It's more annoying than painful, really. But I'm not happy about its return.

This is nothing new. Between twenty and thirty, I had it recurring all the time. Been to numerous doctors with it, both here and in Germany. They never found anything wrong. Had to take various medicines, from Nitroglycerine pills to serious heart medication, the same one my Granny got for a while. It didn't do a thing, so I stopped taking them. After a while, when the stress levels lessened, I seemed to "grow out" of it, if one can grow out of anything at that age.

Now it seems to be back. Heart problems are hereditary in our family, and my Granny lived 96 years despite them, so I'm not particularly worried. It's just very unpleasant, and I feel so terribly weak when it comes over me, it's not even funny.

Comments

[cirdan-havens.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to hear it's not fatal though it does sound very worrisome. :( *hugs* Take care of yourself, but I know it's sometimes impossible with the current situations. My gosh, it really sounds like a version of a heart attack or something. You're definitely not weak. *hugs* You've managed to survive all these difficulties so you're definitely not weak, especially in my eyes. In fact, in a lot of ways, I look up to you. Life sucks but you still find the will to go on. I try to learn from your example.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Flatterer. :))

I meant it makes me feel physically weak, so tired all the time. But I appreciate your sentiment very much. *hugs*