Some holidays...

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I'm so tired it's not even funny.


We are in the middle of the second week of summer holidays, all I've been doing was a little research, writing some teaching plans for the next term and going to the fitness studio three times a week, and still I feel like death warmed over.

It's probably all that recent stress getting to me after all. Oh, hell. It still makes me feel like I'm wasting precious time. Time that I won't be able to re-gain later. Obviously.

I planned to finally update my website - the last update has been in September 2003. I don't sem to be able to bring up the strenght to do so. At least I dropped a short apology for those who might get lost and end up there. I really should do that update. I really should...

I planned to translate at least one mor chapter of Crossroads. I mean the whole chapter in question is a mere 9 pages long, and I've done 3 out of 9 already. The rest shouldn't be such a big deal. Yet it seems to be.

I wanted to finish Still Not in Kansas in this summer. There are only a couple more chapters to be written. But the chapter-in-progress seems to stuck at the moment. I'm very annoyed about that - I'd just love to finish at least one of my ongoing projects.

I need to write that one chapter of Innocence that would tie up the Lórien arc. With Arwen and Amroth's betrothal. But I seem to totally lack any inspiration. My Tolkien muse seems really dead. Small wonder, after the recent events, but it's still discouraging. I'm surprised that I was able to put that last chapter together, from bits and pieces, written months, even years ago. That's why it feels so forced.

I dug out The Equinox Logs again. Felt like write something from Max' POV, for a change. I enjoy it immensely, but I'm afraid the readers wouldn't. Not everyone knows TNG by heart, so that they could recognize all those characters popping up. Well, considering that lhun_dweller is the only human being on this planet who reads it, I can have all the fun I want. She likes that sort of hidden hints too, they won't scare her away.

I should finish Mission to Daleth IV in this summer, too. It lacks about two or three chapters, tops. Now, that's the ultimate l'art pour l'art project. Nobody cares for a bunch of OCs, with only the occasional guest appearance of canon characters like Harry Mudd and Cyrano Jones. Still, I love that story. It gives me great opportunity to play with Tellarite and Orion society and culture and that sort of stuff.

Well, yeah, I know, more projects that humanly possible to deal with in one summer. And I still have to finish those teaching plans. Which is why I'm feeling as if I were wasting my time.


The achievement of the week: Neighbour guy came over last night and installed me the new Norton Antivirus and Live Update stuff. It's a different version from last year, unfortunately - now I'll have to restart the computer every time the thing updates itself. Not a big deal, just annoying. I liked it better last year when the little gizmo simply did the whole thing in the background.

Oh, and my friend Attila agreed to have me over at his place sometime next week, in order to try and create covers for my Trek-related stories. I wish I could deal with Photoshop myself, but that's way beyond my humble skills. At least there is someone who can help, although he is quite a novice, himself.

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*hugs* Yeah, I know the feeling of the long to-do list and no time or energy to do it all.