Not having a good day

[wiseheart]

... despite some modest crafting success. I've made another snowflake, another angel, a 5-pointed and a 6-pointed star of lolly sticks, all nice and shiny. But I've also realized - once again - that in the two and a half year since I retired I haven't been able to do one frigging thing I've been so looking forward to my retirement for. Granted, there was a pandemic involved and Mum's accident and all that, but the sad truth is I've done nothing but sitting at home, drowning in (often completely unnecessary) housework and enduring one renovation after another.

I'm fed up! I know I ought to be grateful that we've escaped the virus (so far), and I really am. But knowing that in a few years I'll be too old and tired to even try some of the things I so desperetely wanted to do kills all the joy in my current existence.

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[meathiel]

*hugs*

These last 1 1/2 years are really taking their toll!

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

They do. All that renovation and Mum's accident certainly didn't help, either. *sigh*

[adafrog.livejournal.com]

{{{hugs}}}

[red-day-dawning.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Life has been really grim during this pandemic times.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

And should it end, I'll be still held back by the fact that poor Mum no longer can move around as easily (relatively speaking) as she did just last year. I mean, she can't even get into a car! Low-board buses and trams might be a possibility eventually, but she won't be able to climb into a train ever again, I'm afraid. *sigh*

[red-day-dawning.livejournal.com]

Oh, that’s awful. I had no idea.

[medievalrosalie.livejournal.com]

It's been a very trying 18 months. It's never too late to make a start, though. *hugs*

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid that with Mum being somewhat disabled this will be a fairly permanent state for me.

[medievalrosalie.livejournal.com]

That's not good. What sort of things were on your list? I'm guessing there is no other family who could help with your Mum short term if you were away Doing A Thing?

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Travelling. I was looking forward to the time when I wouldn't be tied to school holidays anymore so I wouldn't have to travel during high summer. Also, I hoped to catch up with my writing, but for that to work one needs a calmer state of mind than the one i've had during tha last two and a half years. *le sigh*

[sallymn.livejournal.com]

{hugs} I do understand, I had — still have somewhere — a list of the things I was going to go into once I retired, and then covid restrictions hit pretty much the very day I left work. I'm just lucky that my uni studies can be done online, even the readings and books are mostly electronic, otherwise I think I'd have gone bonkers.

Hopefully, when the world gets somewhat back to normal, we can do things. And if not all the stuff we planned, we can find new things...

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

As long as Mum is still with me (which I fervently hope will be a long time yet) I'll always be hindered in doing things. I'm eternally grateful that she's recovered as well as she has, but let's be real, it isn't likely that we'd get any further than the next best grocery together any time soon.

[noadvertising.livejournal.com]

They say we can do all those things we missed the moment Covid is beaten, but we know now that we get told quite a lot of things that won´t happen ( because those politicians do not even want for it to happen). Besides, how long do they think it will take until Covid is beaten? I can tell you one thing: It might be too late for some of us! And it is not only that we cannot achieve those things. Worse is that we lost hope and interest in almost everything we had pictured for us!

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid that you're right about that.