This semi-existence has made me lazy

[wiseheart]

Take a look at the utter monotony that is my so-called life... if you feel like getting bored to death, that is.

Every single morning I have to argue with myself for at least twenty minutes to drag my carcass out of bed. My alarm starts off at 8am and keeps repeating every 10 minutes - I used to get up at half past eight, but now BR changed its program and I have a zoo report at 8:45 already. Which means getting up earlier if I want to take a shower and make the beds (including Mum's) before. So far, I've succeeded, but it is a fight every day.

Actually, it take a special effort to persuade myself to take a proper shower each morning, instead of just a cat wash.

When it's shopping day, I come up with very "logical" arguments why I should skip it today and do it tomorrow instead. (Not that on the next day I'd be feeling more like doing it...) When it's done, I usually not good for anything for the afternoon, especially if I also had to do the cooking (like today).

Except of solving a few crossword puzzles, while the telly is running in the background.

When I get online in the late afternoon, I'm always so resolute to type up whatever I might have written on that day (or on the previous one or on the one before), and then make a journal entry, because I promised myself I'll make one each day, to prove that I haven't wasted said day. Instead, I haven't transcribed a word (again), I'm just making that journal entry, and I've spent all the time reading old antigwenallies posts and playing Solitaire or Mahjongg.

I always promise myself to go to bed at a sensible time - at midnight the latest. Instead, I rarely go to sleep before 1 o'clock, sometime even later. A great deal later. And this pattern repeats itself - with very slight modifications - every day.


I know it's partially my fault. I should get my sh*t together, get better organized and do more useful things. I'm just too listless to make the effort. I don't do well without outside inspiration, and this just isn't the time for that. *sigh*

Comments

[adafrog.livejournal.com]

Yeah. {{{hugs}}}

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[motodraconis.livejournal.com]

I've been reading about the 6 month slump that people get when they are in a prolonged crisis situation, and it sounds like you might have a touch of this? There's loads of things you'd had to cancel because of the virus, outings and socials, it's going to depress your vim.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Most likely, yeah. Even though I've led a fairly quiet life before, the knowledge that I couldn't go out, do things and see people if I wanted makes me want to curl up in a corner and sleep all day.

[motodraconis.livejournal.com]

I've found the thread on this, might be worth a read. (https://god.dailydot.com/6-month-crisis-slump/)

[meathiel]

But then ... you don't really have to DO things, do you???
*hugs*

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

True. But I like to be active and useful! And it kills me that I can't travel, it really does. I haven't left the frigging town for a year! A year! And it doesn't look like I'll get that chance any time soon. :(

[lindahoyland.livejournal.com]

I'm listless too, you are not alone.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Misery loves company, right?

[sallymn.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling... {hugs}

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

It is just so unfair, isn't it? We've finally retired, are no longer the slaves of our jobs, and now we've been taken hostage by the God damned virus!

[chocolate-frapp.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I imagine you do. Thank God for the internet, or we'd all go stark, bonking mad.

[mirasaui.livejournal.com]

It is nice, at least, to be able to vent on Lj and know others are going through similar hard times. Covid-19 will eventually go the wayside like Hong Kong Flu, etc. Sure it taking its sweet time though - sigh.

[wiseheart.livejournal.com]

That it does, the evil, evil thing.